nobody’s girl
Emotions are for the weak, I say curling up into a little ball. I don’t need them and I can hear you growl from somewhere in deep your chest. I think it was the place where I like to bury my head when you’re asleep and i think you won’t notice.
i am nobody’s girl and i’d like you to leave in the morning i have a test at noon, please. i won’t cook for you because that’s demeaning and I am my own woman, goddamnit! If you’re hungry please feed yourself because I cannot waste my time chasing after you and turning myself into some housewife; eat candy all day let you eat me all night.
Barefoot and pregnant, hair loose, swollen ankles, miserable air. I could not become her and I will not. I am nobody’s girl. I am my books’ girl. But I am not my own. I am slave to my ambitions and I will not let you mess me up.
I don’t care that you love me! I shout. I throw things. I won’t love you! I have to become my own girl first.
You ask me, hair rising, fists clenched. When will that be? When you’re dead?
The pizza guy likes me enough to pretend not to hear me so we have to lean over the counter so we’re close together but he doesn’t like me enough to give me free pizza :-(
I am my daddy’s girl.
But he is no one’s daddy and I am left here with the word princess burned onto my ass and i will never find anyone to fill those shoes so i’ll always leave them by the door and i’ll always make a cup of coffee for you and place it on the counter just in case maybe you feel like loving me a little today.
Holy shit I like starting bawling my eyes out when that observer was like “I think, they call it love” and Peter’s like “well, what about Olivia?” And he’s like “She’s yours” and then they ran into eachothers arms on the street and made out and ohmygod i was fucking bawling like that was literally the fucking cutest i’ve ever experienced like their love was so fucking strong that it transcended universes and broke every single physical law possible and it just fucking AH. THEY ARE SO CUTE AND IT IS ABOUT FUCKING TIME.
(Source: beautifullypained)
